r Sunday, November 29, 2009

This is hopeless ...
Is getting overboard ..
I've lost trust and faith in you ..
I believe you , yet you use this against me
Somehow , I ' am wondering if everyone is the same as you
I don't want to admit it , but I ' am starting to think this way
My shirt is wet
As my salty tears flow out
I hate you.
I really do.
Who can I talk to ?
Nobody.
I can't hold it anymore.
I might really do silly things
If you know what happen ,
You would think that that's no need to do that
But , believe me
I 'am not that strong as I seem on the outside
Also all those bad memories is flashing in my mind
I don't know what to do anymore
I 'am angry and sad and disappointed
Angry about the promise you broke that easily ..
Sad about the decisions you make , you rather trust a outsider more than me
Disappointed about the excuses you came out with
You said you're worried , but even someone like me can perform something that easy.
I'am not the same old me anymore , I'am not the child you see anymore
I'am 13 not 3 , is 10 years apart .
You insulted my friends , which I hate it
You can insult me , but please , their innocent .
You talk alot of rubbish , because you don't know the truth .
You trust that outsider than me.
Why?
It seems that the promise you make with me and ahma isn't that great after all
I bet you don't even remember it.
You know , the threat you come out with ,
I 'am not scared , I just want you to approve
I tried to talk to you so many times
You didn't even listen to a single word I said
I cried till my eyes sore
But , what's the point
I tried and tried ,
Still , there's no point
I want to give up , but I can't
I just can't give in
I have to stand up for myself once in awhile , don't I ?
Still , there's one more reason
You broke the promise , you broke the trust
You promise ! I can't believe that I fell for it.
I should have know ..
I should have know that there's no way you'll take this for real !
You think is troublesome , but I don't mind
The one going there is me , so you don't have to worry.
I just have to walk for 10mins ,
Is 10mins that long?
I walk to school every single day for 15 mins !
After typing for so long ,
I 'am starting to get it ,
I can't trust you.
I don't want to be your puppet
I don't want to be your chu qi ton anymore !
Just put your trust in me , for once
I dont ask for much , but please
This is my future , not yours
I don't want you to ruin it.
Please , trust me .

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Alone , Lost
11:33 PM

r Wednesday, November 25, 2009

My stomach hurts ><"
Pain T-T

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Alone , Lost
8:01 PM

Tomorrow getting PSLE results
Whoa .. so scary !! ._.
Everyone ! Good luck ! :)
Jiayou jiayou !!

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Alone , Lost
7:54 PM

r Saturday, November 21, 2009

Finally , going to buy phone after a year my phone spoil .
=.=
Soo happy !
looking forward to 24/25 nov. :)

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Alone , Lost
4:29 PM

Listen to my little thankyou speech :)
Random order :)

Mrs Yean - Thankyou for teaching 6/2'ohnine ! Thankyou for sharing bread too !! Lol . :)
Wenxue [ Wen Tou Xue ] - Thankyou for cheering me up when I'am sad !! Oh btw , laugh softer Lol :)
Chenjie [ Aunt / Banana ] - Thankyou for being such a wonderful friend . Also , telling me stupid jokes :)
Danica [ Wenxue's besz friend ~] - Thankyou for scribbling on the board with me , Senior Citizen of Handbell :)
Huitene [ Huitene lor ] - Thanks for creating the first e-mail for me XD
All Handbell members [ Senior ] - Jiayou for the future ! Keep in contact !
Jena [ Reaction very big ] - Haha .. I'll try to smile ! Good luck with Science ! :)
Chermaine [ Drink supplier jkjk .. ] Glad to have you as a friend ! Stay in contact ! Kayz ? :)
Michelle [ EggShell ] - Cheerful girl , all the best ! :)
Sharkirah [ Shark ] - A girl with lotz of connections ! Jiayous :)
Janine [ Maplefreak ] - Thanks for giving me mesos Lol . Also , thanks for your stupid jokes :)
Hanyuan [ Soccerlover ] - Don't be sad anymore ! Thanks for playing Daidi with me :)
Xinyi [ Prettygirl XD ] - Thanks for teaching me Maths ! Even though how much I suck in it !

I have a feeling I left out someone .. LOL !
Anyways , good luck for your future , everyone !
Jiayou ! Jiayou ! Jiayou !

:)

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Alone , Lost
3:47 PM

r Friday, November 20, 2009

someone organize class outing :)

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Alone , Lost
8:04 PM

Last day of primary school had ended ..
Whoa sad ..
Today's prize ceremony soo sianz ..
When it finally ended
Went to Jena's house to change n eat
The party was quite fun
After the dog n bone game
Khairul , Janine n I was thinking of participating in the next game
Too bad .. It's blind-folded Musical chair
Lol !
Then the lucky draw thingy
I won the consolation prize
Lol ..
Soccer game ?
Jiahao won 2nd prize !
1st prize goes to Diyanah
Grats .. Grats !
The the party over ..
Went downstairs to eat
Took lotz of pics ?
Then I told Wenxue " I'll miss you very much !!!!!"
And she hug me
Whoa ..
That moment I almost cried out
T-T
Then asked someone " you like soccer right ? "
Then he gave me an WTH you ask me ? look
Then I gave the soccer game to him
Haha ..
Haii ..
Went to Chermaine house to celebrate Jena's birthday
LOL .
Then played true or dare
Then michelle dare me to call Hanyuan and say hello byebye ..
So I called , then felt guilty so added Sorry hor sorry !
But I forgot to off then he say oi
Then no choice so said " sorry ! it's they dare me de "
Lol ?
Haii , will miss everyone
Dun forgot me ! k?
Keep in contact !
Oh .. Btw , anyone haven write in my contact book yet ?
Ya .. I know
A lot
Lol ..
Boys n girls also must write hor
As long as anyone that read this post , MUST :)
So far ..
Jiahui , Chenjie , Danica ,Wenxue , Shuning , Eugene , Huitene , Ervi , Jiawen , Cassandra , Venise , Nicole , Wuhao , Shakirah , Chermaine , Jena , Peishan , Janine , Xinyi , Jiahao n Bun write liao
Tell me ur contacts in MSN kays ?

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Alone , Lost
6:33 PM

r Thursday, November 19, 2009

Tomorrow last day liao
Feel like p1 just yesterday T-T
Haii ...
Will miss everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha !
Keep in contact hor !

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Alone , Lost
6:56 PM

r Wednesday, November 18, 2009

2 more days T-T
Haii ..
Very sad lerh ..
Will miss everyone very much ..
T-T

Oh yeah , yesterday gt meteor shower 1am - 6am
Woke up at 2am and 4.30am
Didn't see anything
I'am so stupid , I thought the whole thing will continue for the 6 hours
Haii .. stupid lor should have wait longer before giving up ..
Wah ....
I wanna see it !!!
Anyone saw it ? gt take pics ? send to me !!! T-T

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Alone , Lost
6:49 PM

r Tuesday, November 17, 2009

3 more days ..
Haii ...
Btw , added new song :)
Listen for yr self
Mrs Yean they all go Hougang Sec. today
Spilt the rest of us
Went to 6/3
Wenxue never come , Chenjie went Hougang Sec.
Haii .. Lotz of people never come
So sianz there =.=
Skipskip ..
Finally home
Ask mother for permission to go buy sandal tomorrow
Haha ..
Then MSN-ed with Elli and Jena
While playing Daidi with Hanyuan
Haha
" Online got luck , offline no luck "
Haha ..
But is true !!! [ for me lor .. ]
Friday coming soon T-T
Btw , any1 know when school gonna let us go home change on friday ?
The consent form there only say 12.30pm start ?
Tell me in tagboard :)

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Alone , Lost
8:02 PM

r Monday, November 16, 2009

School gonna end in 4 days ...
Sad .. too sad ...
Went com. lab today ,
Play daidi
Win lotz of times
Not that happy because of some things that happen ..
ICT lesson was ok cause of that thing that happen
Lol !
Now now , answer my question in tagboard , everyone :)

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Went to Chermaine's house today , play daidi
Then went to Compass Point
Run there , tired ..
Then play , eat , chat
Decided to buy presentz for Jena's birthday on wednesday
Hehe ..

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Alone , Lost
6:34 PM

r Sunday, November 15, 2009

Today veri sianz ..
So here I am , posting !
Haha ..
Friday farewell party , so sad ..
Haii ...
Anyway , saw the 2012 thing on yahoo ..
I want to watch it !!
Anyone want go ?
Tell me in tagbox :)
Hehe .. 8 more minutes till 9pm
Having hay fever now =.=
Oh..7 more minutes :)

Shall end here :)

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Alone , Lost
8:54 PM

r Friday, November 13, 2009

Today no badminton again
Becoz of the " show and tell "
Topic - Water cycle , mystery tools - 2 Hangers 1 basket ? ._.
Went back class , Sintee drawing on Styrofoam
Then Hanyuan came and help colour
Suddenly he said whoa .. very hot , fan me le [ or something like that ]
Then laugh .. =.=
Recess , Janine took a soccer ball from the lets play corner
So she went to field to play ..
Dun really felt like playing , kept shouting play catching with me !!
Haii .. , I also want to play but ..
Everytime I play , I remember the stupid incident that happen long long ago .. T-T

I play soccer with some boys then I dribble the ball
Then I TRIP over the ball =.=
My leg is like cover in blood ?
Yeah , I know ..
I'am that clumsy T-T
Haii ...

Anyway , after recess
Went back to hall
After all the teams had presented their work
Mrs Quek show us pics that she took ...
Finally , the results ..
3rd - 6/3
2nd - 6/1
1st - 6/2 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha ..
We won !
Then Sengkang Sec. came to talk with us
So far , this is the 1st school i think i can get in T-T
Lol ..
Went com. lab
1 more class inside so some people no com. to play ?
Hanyuan saw the empty seat beside me then go sit there
Bun , Mike and Yuxian sit beside him ..
Play Big2.5 with Alvin and Hanyuan
Play 2 games , won 2 games :D
They _______ [ forgot liao .. =.= ] said I Pro gambler from Macau ... =.=
Got p6 farewell party on 20nov.
Can wear home clothes
Cannot Slippers =.=
Scared will cry like siao on that day ..
Wish all [ er .. majority ] of us will go in school ?
Every online MSN on 26Nov :)

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Alone , Lost
6:03 PM

r Wednesday, November 11, 2009

No badminton today cos of maths scrabble
Team up with Jena , play with 6/1 and 6/3
We lost =.=
actually is not that surprising ..
Lol , haha ..
Recess time got Busking
Eugene's the first boy who ever sign up for Busking
He's sang you're not alone ?
*Clap Clap*
So brave :)
Lol ..
After that Hidaya
Her singing is like so nice !
Then Huyu
Sang a chinese song
Then Jennifer
Play the piano while sanging
So talented !
She dedicated the song to Chermaine and ______ [ forgot =X ]
Too bad , Chermaine not in school today ..
After that ....
Wenxue and Huyu !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
XD
Damn nice lor !!
Cassandra up next
Sang halfway , relief teacher come T-T
I want listen ..
Then go com. lab
The boys behind me play DOTA
See , make me want to play also =X
The game look complicated though ..
Anyway , play big2.5 with Michelle , Jena and Janine ..
Then saw Chermaine online
So Michelle out , Chermaine in ..
Finally reached Lvl6 !
Yey !
Then Hanyuan came in , weird right ?
Somehow , dunno why he still lvl 4
After that the Yishun Sec. came to have a talk
The school nice la but ....
Their Express cut off point is
23_ ...
No need think liao ....
Confirm cannot go in de ..
After the talk , went back to class ..
Then wait wait
Finally go home ..

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Alone , Lost
9:03 PM

r Monday, November 9, 2009

No pictures to upload for the trip
So I'll upload some pics taken when
Jena , Chermaine , Janine and I took
When we meet up to play badminton ..

Edited by me

Edited by Jena

Edited by Jena Again

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Alone , Lost
5:13 PM

After reading Hanyuan's lastest blog entry
It remind me of myself
Now , I wish I had a " life restarter " too ..
And yeah , someone else is facing and copping with the same thing your facing now ..
Just remember this
Don't think of ending your life , people will be sad and tears would be shred for you ..

At least this is how i cope with it ..

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Alone , Lost
3:27 PM

Hate is truly a terrible thing , don't you think so ?
You have to at least think of a reason to hate somebody ..
So the person would know why you hate her ..
No reason ?
It's painful and hurtful , trusts me ..

Btw ,
Thanks Wuhao and Chenjie
For listening while I was hopelessly crying and sobbing

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Alone , Lost
2:29 PM

r Friday, November 6, 2009

Long time no post ! haha
Today went to the international students outing
Fun !
Went down at 8am while the others playing badminton
Saw Chenjie , Wenxue , Shuning and Venise
Went to sit with them
Then Bun and Sarim came down
Talk , talk , talk
Then went up bus , sit at last row
6 people squeeze there !!
Then dizzy , almost vomit !!
Thanks to Jena for supplying sweets (:
Finally went down bus
Our first stop is ......
Little India !
Checked the number of people
Then all of us walked to the temple
On our way there , Bun behind Jena and I
Making fun of Jena's name
Haha ! =X
Then went in the temple , listen to MR _______
I forgot the name liao ! Sorry !
Walked 1 round the temple
Then went out
Blablabla
I forgot where we went liao
After that 10 minutes break
Jena said she very thisty so went to find 711 [ seveneleven ]
So Wenxue , Chenjie , Venise and Shuning went with us
We went in , so many people !
I keep saying " This SevenEleven so small "
And I kept repeating (:
Jena got a little pissed off =X
Haha !!
Bought Coke and pored in my water bottle
Chenjie bought pokey ? $1.45 ._.
Then we walk walk
I turned and saw Chenjie holding a fan
I ask Chenjie where she get it from cos' we was not standing in any shops?
She told me she bought it ..
Everyone bust into laughter
Lol ..
Then we went to take bus to Kampong Glam [ er .. I think so bah ... ]
Have Lunch in a mid-eastern restrauant
Fries and Chicken
Yummy !
The drink they gave us hor ..
I dunno what that is but seriously ....
It Suck (:
Chenjie , Jena , Wenxue and Venise also Hate It .
After Eating , went to Peranakan Museum
Got air - con ~~~~
Then that's this chomp thing
Very fun and nice (:
Will upload photo later (:
Then we took the bus and went back school
The MR ________ gave us a quiz in the bus
He say girls answer first then Boys ....
Till all the 8 souvenirs is gone (:
It was the boys turn to answer but no one knows the answer
So I rise up my hand
Then Jena they all kept shouting " This boy here know the answer !!!!" [ or something like that ]
Then still , noone knows so MR _______ choose me
I answer correctly so I got the souvenir :D
Girls turn , this time Chenjie got it
I exchanged the prize with her
Haha
Oh yeah , met 2 new friends they very funny de
1 bang onto the pillar while talking with me
Reached school , saw soccer boys having a match
Ate ..
Then my hairclip missing ._.
Cannot clip my hair ._.
While walking to the gate , saw Hanyuan sitting in the basketball count ?
I was like shocked ? Why he never play soccer ?
Maybe because his leg haven heal ba ..
Then I shouted " Hanyuan ! Go home play Daidi hor !! "
Er .. I think I sound weird but i meant to said Go home and play daidi on the com. with me
Haha ..
Photos will upload next time

(:

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Alone , Lost
7:22 PM