r Sunday, November 29, 2009
This is hopeless ...
Is getting overboard ..
I've lost trust and faith in you ..
I believe you , yet you use this against me
Somehow , I ' am wondering if everyone is the same as you
I don't want to admit it , but I ' am starting to think this way
My shirt is wet
As my salty tears flow out
I hate you.
I really do.
Who can I talk to ?
Nobody.
I can't hold it anymore.
I might really do silly things
If you know what happen ,
You would think that that's no need to do that
But , believe me
I 'am not that strong as I seem on the outside
Also all those bad memories is flashing in my mind
I don't know what to do anymore
I 'am angry and sad and disappointed
Angry about the promise you broke that easily ..
Sad about the decisions you make , you rather trust a outsider more than me
Disappointed about the excuses you came out with
You said you're worried , but even someone like me can perform something that easy.
I'am not the same old me anymore , I'am not the child you see anymore
I'am 13 not 3 , is 10 years apart .
You insulted my friends , which I hate it
You can insult me , but please , their innocent .
You talk alot of rubbish , because you don't know the truth .
You trust that outsider than me.
Why?
It seems that the promise you make with me and ahma isn't that great after all
I bet you don't even remember it.
You know , the threat you come out with ,
I 'am not scared , I just want you to approve
I tried to talk to you so many times
You didn't even listen to a single word I said
I cried till my eyes sore
But , what's the point
I tried and tried ,
Still , there's no point
I want to give up , but I can't
I just can't give in
I have to stand up for myself once in awhile , don't I ?
Still , there's one more reason
You broke the promise , you broke the trust
You promise ! I can't believe that I fell for it.
I should have know ..
I should have know that there's no way you'll take this for real !
You think is troublesome , but I don't mind
The one going there is me , so you don't have to worry.
I just have to walk for 10mins ,
Is 10mins that long?
I walk to school every single day for 15 mins !
After typing for so long ,
I 'am starting to get it ,
I can't trust you.
I don't want to be your puppet
I don't want to be your chu qi ton anymore !
Just put your trust in me , for once
I dont ask for much , but please
This is my future , not yours
I don't want you to ruin it.
Please , trust me .
rrr
Alone , Lost
11:33 PM
